MORE RANDOM SHIT

I have not been writing in a minute i been having a block i guess or maybe its the fact that i have been dealing with my anger in another way.My anger problem is starting to take over my body its starting to get to the point where i black out which is totally not good at all i try my hardest to find another way to keep a hold of it everyday.When i was younger nothing use to get to me u would have to climb my scale and my scale was high.Now my scale is short as hell and any and everything gets to me just the sound of some peoples voice or the look they have on there faces makes me angry.Its so hard to understand why i don't know what the hell be going on i my head at times.I get super bad migraines that i cant get rid of until i make myself calm all the way down.Now i got a new problem when i eat candy or anything sweet i get dizzy and light headed and i hate it.I don't want to go to the doctor I'm scared they gone tell me I'm dieing and most of the time when people find out they are dieing they get sicker and when they don't know its like they stay healthy so i don't want to know if I'm dieing yet i don't think I'm ready to go yet.