AM I WRONG

Me and my mom had a wonderful relationship i was so spoiled.When people didnt do what i wanted them to do or didint do it as fast as i wanted i didnt get mad i just said ok im a call my momma people hated hearing me say that and ther she was to my rescue.My mom had my lil sister she was my girl my lil fifi.I did everything for her i spoiled her to death just cause  had asways wanted a sister regardless of the big age difference.Even when  left school my mom was mad but she was still there for me i moved into my first apartment she gave me her whole living room set, all my dishes everthing i never wanted or needed anything when she was around.So it was time for me to have y own child i was sohappy when i found at i was pregnant that happiness didnt last long at all.I just knew out of all people my mom would be happy to have her first grandchild but i was ever so wrong.I told my mom i was pregnant she asked me was i sure i wanted to have a baby she told me i should abort so did the father of my child i was so angry at her for not suporing me and at him for being an asshole.You see my pregnancy was not an accident it was planned so for him to say that when i he found out really devastated me.My mom never really kept in contact anymore she would call of and on not to see how i was doing but to babysit i never said no i was always willingto get my sister if i could.When i had my son she really cut off all her ties to me i think she seen hm a few times when he was a baby she never calls just to say happy birthday or how u doing nothing i cant belive how she treats my child.I didnt mean to but i guess i did take the anger for my mom neglecting my child out on the relationship i had for my sister.I stopped going around and getting her which was wrong on so many levels that was my fault.I dont think that i will get a chance to mak mends to her just because of the simple fact that my mom has already gotten into her and my brothers head and turned them against me it hurts because of the fact that i love my siblings but i do refuse to kiss ass also.Its sad that my mom can just throw her first born away lik that but i am learning to be able to get over it and stop letting it hurt me the way that it does she is the one thats missing out on both of our lives.She will realize it one day and when she does its gone really fuck her up cause i have already rid myself of her s whe she does figure it out its going to be to late its already been past late.