the curse

i have been cursed withthe meaning of my name. raheema means to give and i am so sad that my mom named m raheema.its so terrible i mean how could she do me so bad, she should hve done her research before she decided to name me this bullshit.i am the most giving persn in the world if you asked me for my heart and if i could do it i would cut it out and give it to you just so u could live.i dont know how to say no and people really take advantage of my kindness its so terrible but still i am so nice. even though i know they use my kidness for a weakness its still so hard to change just because i like when people are happy even though it leaves me fucked up inside.i dont know how to deal with unhappiness in people cause i have dealt with being unhappy all my life therefore i dont want anybody to have to feel that way.i just wish people didint take advantage of me but in  the end i do always come out on top, because those that do take advantage of me and decide to do me wrong always have bad shit come to them.i feel i have been cursed in two way im cursed myself and i also curse others who decide to do me wrong