CRAZY

Sometimes i feel so down and  out that i just want to give up on life.I really do despise life so much.Sometimes i just wonder when will it all end i be at just that point at times.I think if i wouldn't of had a kid i might have ended it a long time ago.You would think I'm all good and happy because i hide it so well, but deep down I'm really so sad and depressed.My son holds me down he keeps me together even though he also works my nerves.I keep it together just i don't never want him to see me down and crying,shit like that depresses kids and even at his young age he might think its his fault and i don't never want him to blame himself for the shit i go through in life.I just cant understand why i get so depressed all the time but i do i don't want to have to take any medications but it looks like that's my only alternative i have to do something bout this suicide that I'm feeling please pray for me.