trying something new

well i have been trying to turn my life around yesterday i went to church and it felt really good i am so not bout to get churchy but i do know that i have to get my mind and life right.I started my ged classes i am pretty happy about that what i am not happy about is how much time it is going to take me to get that damn math together i really need a tutor its getting real out here and i am learning to think before i speak which is so hard to do but i now know that everybody cant take the truth i must hang around a whole lot a fake people soon as i be real people get an attitiude but oh well if you dont want to here my feedback to the problems that you are bringin to me then keep that shit to yourself. I am noticing alot of fake shit going on now that i am trying to clear my mind and its hurtful but its also good to be able to open my eyes from being blind for so long so i am happy that my mind is getting clear. I am also trying to stop drinking which is going to be hard since its what i use to keep me from going in people mouth now when people piss me off and lord knows that happens so often im a just have to say a prayer for my sanity for my anger not to come over me and seriously hurt somebody. I have to learn to just enjoy life and tkae whatever i can get out of it. somebody told me i ahd to much pride just because i rather struggle aand stress that to ask for something and i ahte to break pride down people say that word and they dont know the true meaning of it and i am having offended by that comment i dont have to much pride i just know that i dont have anybody that is truely in my corner to ask for anything they call it pride i call it not wasting time or breath well in these days, weeks ,and months hopefully i will grow to be a better me im hoping for pray for me good day