so this 2012 is so not going the way i wanted it to go i have fucked up so much in these three months i dont know what to do with myself.all i can do is look at myself in disgust im a sad as person and i really need to get my shit together i am getting to old to be doing the same old nonsense that i use to do i cant save money i really think i have a spending problem and i just spend money on bullshit it ridiculous i really got to try to find a person to sit and help me with my spenind issues this shit is really getting out of hand. i really dont have alot of good things to say about my year so far only that im still breating and trying to maintain thats other than that i am really lost on where i went wrong and why i made the decisions that i made this year i was supose to be in a new place didnt go through with thats i was supose to have a new car i did get that got a super high ass note that goes with that too. i was supose to go back to school my mind hasnt even thought about that the devil is on my back rididng the shit out of and im just letting it happen i feel so ashamed and worthless i really got to do better or im going to be drowning in debt and be checked in the mental ward at the hospital its getting bad out here wish me luck world.