so as i am coming into this year is see there is people that i use to be cool with last year trying to cause problems for me sitting up making up all kinds of fucking lies and trying to put the shit on me.now i thought i only hung around adults and real ass people because thats what i am but every one in a while a damn snake sneeks up on you and sheds there skin and shows what they can really do. oh yea thats what they called me a snake and it was the other way around. now yall putting this bullshit in these people heads and then yoy want to go run and hide and still keep talking shit behind my back. thats the difference between me and yall i have know problem what so ever saying whatever the hell io want to say whenever i want to say it and thats what scares yall you tink im goignt o say something real bad i like the fear yall ahve in your body its the best no matter how bad yall try to make me be the bad person i know you fear me and its to cute. all im saying is this i am 27 years old i have other things to be worried about other than the yall you all are the last thing thats on my mind you are irrelevent to me so in not going to be on know get back type of shit imjsut going to let shit take its course because people who do wring to me always get it in the end i am to good of a person to get played with i dont have to do anything i let karma take its course im so glad i have grown up because i was hot mad so pissed off ready to ride down on a muthafucka especially when i ahve been the person on your side and you lie on me like that i was ready to make it do what it do but i thought bout and said you not even worth my time but i do congratulate yall on really making my best friend for over ten years believe that i was a scandalize person you made me realize that out of all these years she doesnt even really know me and thats fucked up but its cool i am a hard person to really be able to read but i do say to yall good job for that one it just lets me know where i stand with people.but i cant blame her it did sound really good i still love you hope next time you will know that i am not that kind of person at all its just not me its not what a do .

so im at work havin fun with my workers as usual when they are not pissing me off. and all of a sudden one of my employees starts making this noise then stands up staight and falls backwards she started having a seizure i was so scared she hit her head so hard i just knew she had cracked her skull. come to find out she hadnt been takin her blood pressure pills the way she was supose to and it dropped on her which caused her to have the seizure. it just makes you want to take better care of yourself i have been slackin on my diet nowing i have a goal to meet in this next three months but im bout to get back on my game i really cant have shit like that happening to me. i still cant get the image of her falling like that out of my head she is one of my good friends so it made it even worse of an experience. i just hope i dont have to go through any health problems i would be devastated well every body need to get healthy be safe be smart rap it up.

shit is on my mind

so i have been having a kind of strained beginning of the year with so much to do and so little time and with alot of disappointment. so i was just about to get my second job and i lost my babysitter so now i cant have to jobs and still got to figure out what im a do with the job i got. my sons dad has been being a bitch actn like he dont want to get his seed when he is supose to. its so crazy how men get the easy way out and don really have to be there at all. im a good as mom and i really dont ask for much but for him to spend time with his son boys need a father figure in there life, now if i get out here and find my baby a new daddy his ass gone be mad as hell. i try my best to be as good of a baby momma as i can didnt file child child support even though i know that i do it all by myself i know i deserve child support but i still dont file his ass is starting to make me rethink that decision. i try my hardest not to be spiteful and ignorant but it seems like now days thats the only thing people understand. i try so hard to be all i can be for my son thats the love of my life and i know my son loves his dad and im trying so hard not to take him away from the little time he has to give. i dont want to blamed for my son not having his time with his dad, but only time will tell because as he gets older he will know and understand that im really the only person right there in his corner now matter what and hopefully he will be okay with that. im not going to make anybody do anything they dont really want to do with him he is my responsibility and im just going to have to deal with the fact that my son has a dead beat dad. he didnt use to be this way i dont know if because i dont want to be back with him which it still shouldnt matter. so its just me myself and i is what my son has to the end.